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feeling not well again!all my mind were confused...

all the song sounds like noisy

luckily i found Annett Louisan

clasical,vintage,silent

just like a mask,soothing me...........................................

no meaning for living

i don't know what to do

i don't know what to do

i only do is miss you

i don't know what to do

i don't know what to do

i only do is love you

i don't know what to do

i don't know what to do

i should do is forget about you................................................................................................................................................................

its tired to live alone,especially without you

what i had became

i became the disgusting character which i would hate

but now i am

ugly

dirty

poor

yer...................................................................................................................................................................

its time to take a rest

find out what i really need

learn to live more selfish

maybe is a good idea

treat myself better

kelvin eng,dun worry,i sayang you aar

can you do that?

yes....................................................................................................................................................................

the seaside of us

our love begin at the seaside

i think,it should end by the brush of surf

i dont care,but lonely keep on tearing

pieces of my heard

broken like the sand

all of our memories,its time to go

one question

do you still love me?

tell me,take me all or leave me alone

my private mask

i still sick,and the h1n1 is getting more and more serious!

seems everyone is wearing mask,i think i also need a mask to protect other people!or maybe stay away from me!

mask,please do cover my sadness also!

even how sad i am,no one can saw it!

luckily,i am not that sad,just abit........

11.00:

i wake up and i feels like i am a jelly!i cant stand well!

cos i drank the medicine more than the given dosage

just like drunk,

ha.....

do it for what?

if u know me,u know why!

noon:

i watch a movie'push'

its a good movie!and i love the girl in the movie!

she's quite famous!

i think a good movie can let me feeling better!

eat med again,napnap again!

8.00:wake up n have my dinner....bread!

euuu.....hope can spread the peanut chocolate!but i only can spread apple jam and honey!

ok la...

i change my bed sheet!cos i feel very dirty!so many hair on it!haha.....cauz i am hairy!dirty me!

hav a chat with a taiwan friend!i like him alot,he just like a mystery,so special!love it!

need to do homework,but i am lazy!aiyo...so bad la

mr kelv dreaming

oh.....my love....my darling..............come hear to me,acc me,caring me.........

heartbreaked...

poor poor poor...

no strength to do anything,
poor prince just get scolded!no one care about me!
finding a human who can take me away
need a true heart of caring...

"im scared to face another day
cos the fear of me just wont go away
in a instance,you were gone and im scared"

everytime i desided to do a thing,but later it will appeared something which stuck me and let me heartbreak...

what i say out of my mouth is not same as what my heart thinking,i dont know how to translate it

what i need is not expensive,

i didnt know how to explain myself,

cos i am a prince,which cant help anyone
....i just a trouble

pass my driving lesson but didnt pass in love

june23,
i still sick but so exited today,because 11.30 i have to go to the driving school to take my driving test!i even dont take my medicent to make sure i am not sleepy!yes,i am full of energy and i deside to pass.no,i must pass!i won't go to that place anymore and i hope wont meet my driving teacher anymore"he is damn fxck bitch"!sorry......
11.00,
i rush to took a cab.about 11.30,i sucessfully arrived without late,but no use,u have to sit there and wait for 2 and a half hour baru they fetch us to the exam place!the happy thing is that i saw a damn handsome guy also going to have his test!but he look cool!haiz....ops,another guy is we went to theory test together,sadly i still shy and act like dont know him!
2.30,
that scarry place just like super kampung,hot like having sauna!....still have to wait!luckily i get no5 huhu....chanel!soon,i get in to my lucky car,slide road=pass,parking=pass,three point turn=pass,on the road=pass........................hahahaha...

I'M PASS THE P LICENSE

i can drive already!kaka....after the on the road hor,i left my bag in the car!so stuben...so i have to wait for the car came back!on that time,a kind guy talk to me,we chat for few words...the car arrived and luckilythe guys is going to get in to this car also!so"ngam"quite memorable!i sms to all my parents and friend!except him...

cant imagine i can do itwait again until4.3o we only can go back!i went to my sister house,because i decided to visit my grandpa which just having a major operation!i arrived to house and the 1st thing to do is bath...cool down myself!after that i on9!i've chat with lucas,my sis ex,we didnt met for couple of years!damn miss him!we chat alot about me,my life,my love...bla...bla...bla....
about7.00 sister back from college!she is so tired!but we cant stop chatting about gossip andd jokes!at nit,we went to pasar malam for searching our dinner!
after dinner...gor gor was so busy,until very late,that's y we cant go to visit grandpa!!!poor,gorgor!

god bless gong gong recover very very soon......
11.00pm
i took teksi n go back home!afterbath,sis sms me!and i tell him about i have to concentrate on study and not to let her worry about me!i got stressful after i told him,because i have to do it!
ya,i have to do it................

honestly,i miss him so much
while every1 is going to slp,i started felt so lonely!he,didnt call me for caring about my sick!heartbreaked........ya,i should know that he's not mine anymore................................................................................................................now and ever

i had a bad day

i was sick...so bad!
and i cut all of my hair,"skin head"so bad,going to caught by our school devil!
tomorrow driving exam,so so bad...
my dear didnt call me,worst
why my monday had become a bad day!
i even no appetite,ohw...mayb im going to die
i dont know whether the virus inside my body is h1n1 or not!
haha.......its not funny.i am seriously"BAD"after this,i am going to napnap!
please it will turn well after i wake up!
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...amitofo

we took a picture when he is smoking at the klcc park!

althought he just close to me

but i cant feel his love anymore

he cant spent his patient to me,

he has answered a call and it made me curious whether he had done any unfaithful thing to me

to me,i am an ediot,keep staying beside a dangerous leapard...........

i went to driving lesson!damn tired,cauz i just keep on driving for 3 hour!i do the parking,3 point turn,stop on the slide road,on the road!huuh...all i done but not perfect!haiz...i think i have no such potential to driv!after that,i da bao a big curry rice for my dear mummy for lunch...of course we share lo!later i went to sister house!go swimming,i driv to the swimming places and damn scarry my driving style,barely crush to a huge expensiv mas....haha...how dare i am,hav dinner with my parents at my dad's restaurant,i dabao for mama again!swt

today,i am sad.i am hurt ,painful without scream.same problem as usual, just because of him,i should be habit already!i do many horrible thing and just because of him
do you still love me?i think no more
i can hear your heart,no passion of me,im not important anymore
even you date me out,you just force to do it

i still love you.dear

but now we just waiting for each other to say "break up"

tears....
mayb you came out i will be better...
....................................................................but you dont.

2009 blogger starter....顺风17

7th of june 09,me,albee,and zinc went to genting for our school holiday vacation.before the trip,we facing a lot of problem,for example transport,accomodation,and so on!but finally we went thr sucessfully!b4 the day,i went to kl sentral to buy the bus ticket!damn scared and my heart keep on punping hardly because of my overthinking,scared theres no more ticket,scared albee's parent wont let her go!after i arrived kl sentral,i rush to the information centre and ask for the situation!the most paiseh thing is i said:"excuse me,may i know where can buy genting."how to buy a genting that i only have rm200 in my hand! hahahahaha..........
luckily the ladies thr know what did i mention about!
i thought there will be a lot of people queing for buying the ticket but not!only 1 of me
i brought a RM42 including two way transport+in and out door ticket!its quite worth

the day after,we meet at my house before go to get the bus!alb and zinc was too exited until they hug each other.i just keep on style my hair on!we carrying our own hand carry with our trash bag!waou,quite coo!