that's what i want!...in my 18th birthday!

i need it...it's a concealer !!!

a colourful mini porter messanger bag(fake)..........ow...i can bring it out everytime

a very classical real gucci strep...ow....i love it

a box of great mask....

a ring with my name,Kelvin.........its so sweet de la!but it hav to wait for 3 month for making it

mini poppop.......i want it since veli veli long time....make me feeling good...poppop

nike squeeze bottle.............i ask for it for few years edy

paul frank headset.......its so cool de la

prada key chain....when i saw it....i edy fall in love with it

i hate nokia...but when i go to the shop and touch this phone...it make me feel regret!

i means 'other than that'

i drop a jelly bean...under my bed

so i lie down and find the jelly bean

i use a lot of effort to get it back

finally i got it

but it cover with mud

i dont care...clean it up a little bit and put it into my mouth

although its yummy,it still dirty

The venetian...Macau

yes.....i am staying in this gorgeous resort during my vacation at macau

just jealouse me...because i had a very dramatic experience there.....make sure you really want it?

it was not a happy trip which i was aiming for!......it was a mess

the after ten years my father bring me and my mum went to a trip, almost same hurtful like the the tour to bangkok before 10 years

godsh....i swear i wont go travel with my dad anymore.

before this trip,i thought i can covered the bad memory,and i do a lot of search for this trip!

thanks for my bro's help

i want this trip to be a relax and enjoy tour...so i plan to eat and shopping at Macau only

althought it was a trashy trip...but it ended with hapiness...haiz,suan la

the story start now:

the day before we fly to Macau,we stay at Vistana hotel.

i drive to the hotel and park my baby at the parking.

waou...amazing,the hotel has been renovated!and i still like it

this hotel had a lot of my childhood memory

i always went there because my dad's restaurant was just at the opposite

before i sleep,i listen to music and read my just bought's magazine!so relax desneh.....

now the nightmare began...

my dad cant sleep at night and always disturbing me

from 11pm start to 2am,i already wake up for 3 time and because of him!

war.........thanks for my dad and the next day my smoky eyes makeup done...

we had our breakfast at the hotel and went to air asia airport by texi!

when we arrived at the airport,

we done the registered and sent the baggage...

then we wait at the hall....

shocking me...my dad brought a 40++%alcohol drink and said he wanna enjoy with my mum....

how sweet......i never saw my dad did those thing....

its time to get onto the flight

aiyooh...the seat was so tight...but whatever....

arrived to Macau

we took about 3 hour and 35 minute flight from M'sia to Macau...

then we took the free Venetian's bus to our dream resort...it just nearby

thanks for my cousin to help us book the discount price room so that we can enjoy our sleep with a affordable price

after we bath,we went to Pinocchio portuguese restaurant to had our dinner with my cousin...

i am so in love with the food..so special flavour that i never taste before

at the time,i also confirm about situation of the search of the foods...

waou.....i got it

the next day,

we went to 'HUANG TING' hotel to had our dimsum breakfast!i highly recommended

especially the "no1 bao"which is their well known foodthat only sell after 11am...and also limited

when my dad pay the bill...suddenly.he's fire was burned....with no reason

and my mum tell me that hes' mad was because of me.......what the hell was that

my mum tell me that i am not"man"enough...so i make my dad drop face................ediot

everything happened so suddenly and the time i feel like i destroy the trip....i almost wanna cry but i just keep the drop rolling on my eye...

we suppose to go to st.poul,but the plan was delay...we just back to the Venetian...

when i arrived....i dont care anything and just run to find a toilet and cry....

i want to be alone....so i listen to my mp3 and keep shopping....

my red eye make me not dare to look at people......i doesnt smile....no expression on my face...

but when i heard the sales trying to serve me...in that time...i can feel some worm.....thanks....

i think is time for me to go back to the room....

but when i reached...mum's not there...only saw my dad....haiz...i just say"dont talk to me" and start cry again on my bed

my mum was lost....

aaaaaaah.............................my dad go and find my mum and i just sit on the window and look outside......i keep thinking a lot of scarry thing....will my mum jump from the top of the building...will she hurt herself ?...blabla and i cry again......

finally i heard my mum's sound....they try to find me..and i hide myself covered by the window curtain....

lovely mama found me.......she know where am i...she know what am i thinking...always....

haiz......all are my fault.....

about 6pm...we went to a japanese restaurant to had our silent food....i just keep order without check the price....

i am so mad with my dad...he always said im not 'man' enough......please la....thats my personality and cant change anymore...do i need to act like a angry man to fulfilled him?

i am so moody and just like carrie having her vacation at maxico(sex and the city)

after that...we went to the street yesterday we were....buy biscuit,2 "amchun"roasted mini bird coast rm28each......then we back to Venetian

i dont want to go back room first....i went to Haagen Dazs and buy a huge icecream(1 scoop of rum raisin,1 scoop of green tea,topping with peach,strawberry jam,and almond nut)it costs rm29.

my very 18 horror movie

stop hurting,baby!

REcoffeeTABLE

"you make me become a cappuccino

but then you said you wanna latte!"

i am preparing to explode the best smell to you

but you don't care

i'm ignored

not just 1 time,my life is just like recycle

again again again again and again

WAItime scheduleBUSY

ow fine!everything change!

i am so duno what to do

i feel like so so so complicated

everyone seems like want me to be their teksi

i am so blur...

am i right?

or i am selfish?

whatever...at least i have my benefit

enjoy my holiday life ba kelvin!!!

(today)14dec-last spm"baby im going to be a orange,i roar the orange"

15dec-wenxin(sg.wang)morning till nit shopping day!roar........i want sales

17dec- 5 mulia shopping day(mid.v)i am not so sure whether there got their cloth or not!but i try my best to help them...and also learn to choose suit cloth for a person,my future job!

albee schedule cancel!wish her can get license so so soon!kambade

you cut off our shopping day.....owe me!!!!!!!!

1 night clubbing

i am so so mad

duno for what!!!im done here.......x.o.x.o

re-BORN-ing

2 paper more,one week more i am going to graduate from my high school,smk.kepong

good bye,hell!i wanna leave you forever.......................

hehe.......i am ready for my new notty notty adventure

come on baby...................................................................................................

and also started to concern about my future

education:

i am so so passion about fashion since i am in form 1,

i wanted to study fashion design

and after my spm i will go to raffles design institude to ask about the course and the""""FEES"""

i heard that raff is one of the highest payment college in kl!

am i going to sell my body to pay for the fees?

travel:

my dad and my mum desided to go either thailand or vietnam!

not sure yet!yeer....they are going to have a old style vacation which is follow by a tourist!

boring..........go see the antique or duno wat thing la!

but i am quite exited because we've never go travel together since i am 6years old!!!

don't care about that la,i just wanna relax and enjoy the gethering feel!

friend:

teresa-15dec, sgwang shopping and cut off her stupid hair

kelvin kwan-hang out

albee-crazy do noncense when i am free

mummy-24dec,celebrate x'mas at mid'v!sweet and it is my traditional

thats my friend's appointment

available for those who want to hang out with me[contact me for booking]

kelv's plan:

*i wanna clean up my books and redecorate my room

*i wanna dye my hair(orange,yama,light brown)

*i wanna clubbing or just go to a pub

*i wanna go genting(i've missed the graduation trip with my classmate)i am so sad with that(is your fault, leong)

*i wanna sick,i think i need to rest so so much!

*i wanna work,but i am too busy(december is my x'mas month,i want to enjoy it)(january free only)(february is chinese new year and valentine's day)(march,my birthday month,i want to celebrate the whole month)(june,i think i need to continue my study)where is the time for me to work????i need money$$$$$$$$$$$$

*i wanna work out my body and hope can be a model(modelling agency,please contact me)haha...

*i wanna go bangkok for my new clothes,i wanna shopping thr and wrap all the clothes thr

*i wanna have a relationship.....haiz,am i ready for love?where is my mr right?so so alone

x' l o v e mas

ring ring ring....

season of happiness,sweet and warm

just remember what you've give

couldn't remember how many other people gave you

lost yourself when you fell to some1

if you still yourself,do you really have love?

it seems like exchange your soul and it makes friend unbearable

i got enough but i still have demands

good or bad!its depend!

fight for your life,appreciate the air its given to you

thinking too much means i have a lots of idea,i am creator

haha...

ok...i am waiting

the right 1

to tell me the 3 words 8 letter

sorry my friend!!!!!!!!!bff ya

feeling from deep deep part beside my lung

boy you make me speechless,

some secret that never tell means shouldn't tell,

feeling have to keep aside when you need a thing

it will hurt the deep deep deep part left beside my lung

young means young lifestyle jump here jump there....do a lot of meaningless

izit suit for a mature style of relationship?

thats mean no everyday call,no everyday date no everyday romance......

its just like almost broke up like i've been

but for mature relationship,its still have love between it

compare to the young relationship,keep in touch in every second,easy angry easy happy,lots of nonsense!i would say it 'ANNOYING'

i don't know how to refuse and say "no"

seriously....

i have many opinion and lots of feeling

in my deep deep part beside my lung

every time when i give 100% to my lover,always get refused and finally i have to talk to myself in my room.....hi wall!

so so funny sometime

i always smile every1 love me smile,when i'm in bad mood,i cry......did any1 really want to see it?

i should call my name as kelvin poor.

trustworthiness

setiap bencana yang melanda mesti ada punca

whats wrong to my parent!

they rather trust the gossip also didn't trust me!

stop that....guess will destroy everything ok!

human

you either trust me or just shut up!

thanks for michelle to did all of these!i know she really need that!

attention please

if im really good,please treat me good

if im really bad,ignore me or just kill me

(for the human that i know)

hug me

(for my friend)

let me grow up

(for my parent)

do it for me

(for the 1 who love me)

kiss me

(for the unique 1)

pay me

(for the future fashion industry)

believe me

(for the stupid)

joke me

(for the buddy)

love me

(for me)

lets call it as a combination day

early in the morning,i went jogging again!

then i have to fetch my mum to have brunch and also went to the tailor shop!

these is the moment

BAD mood started....

but i don't like to talk about that!!!

i wish i could ignore it but i can't!

the whole day i keep thinking about the bad mood!

in the afternoon,i went my sister's home

coz we decided to go Raffles institute to ask about the course!lastly we didn't

....oow......

feel like i don't wanna go back home!

oow ya,my second dating was today!

eew...still the same place and still the same cinema and still the same weather

but different feeling different food,drink,different sitting pose

today movie is"""""""""""""""MEATBALL""""""""""""""'''''

huuray,it just so so HAPPY and HAPPINESS to watch that

my favorite scene which is the ice-cream winter....

oow,can i request a rum and raisin fravour?

i think i'm already love the way we been together

so normal,so fun,so sweet,so familiar

i think the previous relationship taught me a lot.....

im much more tough now~~~~i think!!!

mmm...the yummy green pan mee was so memorable and we just like 2 baby couple

chit chat so much beside eating!

waou...he was so busy and i really can feel his tired!

so i think i couldn't make him much more tired.............this is the only what i can do!

after he went home!

i decided to stay at there because i don think that going back home is a good choice!

only for today,i don't want to see my mum face

and my father

i feel that they give me so so much of pressure but not about study

they want me to be not 'ENG KHAI WAI'

they want a son

i walk around the curve,so cool and lonely!

eeih.....don't know why all of my friend keep sms me!

at least i got them.....and also the sweet word from someone

oow...a couple again....saw them eating mcD ice-cream

mayb have a mc flurry oreo would cheer me up!

waou.................the 1st time experience

i was sitting in front of adidas store and enjoy my lovely mcflurry

there were so silent and unfamiliar

makes me comfortable!

love the feeling.............

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almost 1 month!!!finally something happened!!!thunder and light.........

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trust me uncle,im poor and also poor

sorry uncle,i cant answer your question

i'm having the same feeling that you have

why dont we just sit down and share our idea about having a relationship with some1

love need giving energy,giving your brain to your lover,

once you falling for some1,.....................tired

as same as going to a battlefield

you can get a lot of money but get ready to sacrifice your life

do you know,uncle

i went to night market and look at those couple,

cant stop thinking a lot of question!and of course i'm jealous

what i really need?from the love

beautiful dirty rich sexy confidence face show off kiss

CARE.........i do really need

scars that would never recovered

is scared of touching

if u touch it...............ouch!

i think i cant handle refuse anymore

so i wish that before the ugly truth explode,sent me a sms and just go,if you love me

its enough for me to act like an ediot

i'm smiling doesn't mean that i'm happy

i'm silent doesn't mean that i'm mad

extremely needed a happiness hug

you try to know me,will you go more far

i really need to think what am i doing!

thanks,uncle...

now your turn

do you like me?or you like i chat with you in nude?