heartbreaked...

poor poor poor...

no strength to do anything,
poor prince just get scolded!no one care about me!
finding a human who can take me away
need a true heart of caring...

"im scared to face another day
cos the fear of me just wont go away
in a instance,you were gone and im scared"

everytime i desided to do a thing,but later it will appeared something which stuck me and let me heartbreak...

what i say out of my mouth is not same as what my heart thinking,i dont know how to translate it

what i need is not expensive,

i didnt know how to explain myself,

cos i am a prince,which cant help anyone
....i just a trouble

pass my driving lesson but didnt pass in love

june23,
i still sick but so exited today,because 11.30 i have to go to the driving school to take my driving test!i even dont take my medicent to make sure i am not sleepy!yes,i am full of energy and i deside to pass.no,i must pass!i won't go to that place anymore and i hope wont meet my driving teacher anymore"he is damn fxck bitch"!sorry......
11.00,
i rush to took a cab.about 11.30,i sucessfully arrived without late,but no use,u have to sit there and wait for 2 and a half hour baru they fetch us to the exam place!the happy thing is that i saw a damn handsome guy also going to have his test!but he look cool!haiz....ops,another guy is we went to theory test together,sadly i still shy and act like dont know him!
2.30,
that scarry place just like super kampung,hot like having sauna!....still have to wait!luckily i get no5 huhu....chanel!soon,i get in to my lucky car,slide road=pass,parking=pass,three point turn=pass,on the road=pass........................hahahaha...

I'M PASS THE P LICENSE

i can drive already!kaka....after the on the road hor,i left my bag in the car!so stuben...so i have to wait for the car came back!on that time,a kind guy talk to me,we chat for few words...the car arrived and luckilythe guys is going to get in to this car also!so"ngam"quite memorable!i sms to all my parents and friend!except him...

cant imagine i can do itwait again until4.3o we only can go back!i went to my sister house,because i decided to visit my grandpa which just having a major operation!i arrived to house and the 1st thing to do is bath...cool down myself!after that i on9!i've chat with lucas,my sis ex,we didnt met for couple of years!damn miss him!we chat alot about me,my life,my love...bla...bla...bla....
about7.00 sister back from college!she is so tired!but we cant stop chatting about gossip andd jokes!at nit,we went to pasar malam for searching our dinner!
after dinner...gor gor was so busy,until very late,that's y we cant go to visit grandpa!!!poor,gorgor!

god bless gong gong recover very very soon......
11.00pm
i took teksi n go back home!afterbath,sis sms me!and i tell him about i have to concentrate on study and not to let her worry about me!i got stressful after i told him,because i have to do it!
ya,i have to do it................

honestly,i miss him so much
while every1 is going to slp,i started felt so lonely!he,didnt call me for caring about my sick!heartbreaked........ya,i should know that he's not mine anymore................................................................................................................now and ever

i had a bad day

i was sick...so bad!
and i cut all of my hair,"skin head"so bad,going to caught by our school devil!
tomorrow driving exam,so so bad...
my dear didnt call me,worst
why my monday had become a bad day!
i even no appetite,ohw...mayb im going to die
i dont know whether the virus inside my body is h1n1 or not!
haha.......its not funny.i am seriously"BAD"after this,i am going to napnap!
please it will turn well after i wake up!
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...amitofo

we took a picture when he is smoking at the klcc park!

althought he just close to me

but i cant feel his love anymore

he cant spent his patient to me,

he has answered a call and it made me curious whether he had done any unfaithful thing to me

to me,i am an ediot,keep staying beside a dangerous leapard...........

i went to driving lesson!damn tired,cauz i just keep on driving for 3 hour!i do the parking,3 point turn,stop on the slide road,on the road!huuh...all i done but not perfect!haiz...i think i have no such potential to driv!after that,i da bao a big curry rice for my dear mummy for lunch...of course we share lo!later i went to sister house!go swimming,i driv to the swimming places and damn scarry my driving style,barely crush to a huge expensiv mas....haha...how dare i am,hav dinner with my parents at my dad's restaurant,i dabao for mama again!swt

today,i am sad.i am hurt ,painful without scream.same problem as usual, just because of him,i should be habit already!i do many horrible thing and just because of him
do you still love me?i think no more
i can hear your heart,no passion of me,im not important anymore
even you date me out,you just force to do it

i still love you.dear

but now we just waiting for each other to say "break up"

tears....
mayb you came out i will be better...
....................................................................but you dont.

2009 blogger starter....顺风17

7th of june 09,me,albee,and zinc went to genting for our school holiday vacation.before the trip,we facing a lot of problem,for example transport,accomodation,and so on!but finally we went thr sucessfully!b4 the day,i went to kl sentral to buy the bus ticket!damn scared and my heart keep on punping hardly because of my overthinking,scared theres no more ticket,scared albee's parent wont let her go!after i arrived kl sentral,i rush to the information centre and ask for the situation!the most paiseh thing is i said:"excuse me,may i know where can buy genting."how to buy a genting that i only have rm200 in my hand! hahahahaha..........
luckily the ladies thr know what did i mention about!
i thought there will be a lot of people queing for buying the ticket but not!only 1 of me
i brought a RM42 including two way transport+in and out door ticket!its quite worth

the day after,we meet at my house before go to get the bus!alb and zinc was too exited until they hug each other.i just keep on style my hair on!we carrying our own hand carry with our trash bag!waou,quite coo!

why........why love

kelvin must hurt kelvin de meh.............
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah............
i know i cant do this.................................
but why you only wanna go now...........
dont come on me at first ma................
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah................

ooh..o...love,you hurt me

after the dating... i think i really like the person
~i like to shopping with the person!
because i think we have the same taste
~i really enjoy when we watching a ghost movie which i would never choose horrow movie at cinema
~i hug the person hand because im scared
~i can slightly smell the smoke on the person hand...quite sexy
~i felt ancious when the person watching at me and come closer toward me
honestly....im exited.............................aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh
~the person brought me a drink'green tea blended+choc mint'which are my favourate
~i leave the person
everything lost after that day
the person become cool and less to call me
no massage no feel of love like before
i know that
i already know that before
this feeling will dissapeared very fast..........but memorable
can you just let me know...wheater you wany leave me or you want fall in love with me?
now.....i just can waiting for your call.......keep waiting..........................................
but everytime i heared your voice just felt like force to talk to me.......
ok....
maybe its just over....
ok....
ever mind
i just remind the sweet memory.................................................................

thanks papa~❤

~1st sept 08
we went to pavilion to celebrate my lovely sister's b'day
while waiting for the foods..daddy give me a box...its a parfume
i felt happy because he stil remember i had order him to buy me a parfume long time ago!
i felt very happy...
BUT
i told him to buy gucci pour homme2 but he brought meacheap parfume,haiz...

quite dissapoint!
quite 'paiseh' cause daddy didnt buy anything for the person who is birthday but me!

keke...
we are curious about the price of the parfume,so we started to guess...320?210?90?20?19?

whatever....
i still very happy and very touch!
because he seldom do that to me!
i love you daddy.....